joi, 18 februarie 2016

A thousand years


For a while we run together hand in hand
A sunny time, in storming land
It's time that hitting me, when soul become a furrow
driping venom in me,  burning in joy and sorrow
It's time that fills again my senses with emptiness!
I don't regret this now, must blame the past for this...
A poison is my blood, a poison long and well
Who turns it slowly, slowly my loneliness in hell
Pain is air which I breathe, when thinking about past
Becomes so hard, so dense, and hate myself. I must!
A tear not runs it down, my face completely dry is
But maybe just like that it is a man who cries....
I'm sad always when I feel how difficult it was
But all along I know, the future can be worse.
Like a sailor ill of land 'coz it is learned with sea
It's just how I fill now, around and inside me
I m sick, I m crazy, and I love you being absent
And feeling you inside me... more real more present!
I'm done. This suffocates me, of all my life it bites
And so, I flirt again with sublimes suicides.
In silence that appear when death is near by
My soul is struggling hard and probably I die...
It is a cling to feelings; it is a cling that's violent
And outcry of all this, is lost for good in silent...
I'm tormented again by need of all my sins
Too fill my mouth with you like how I did it once
Hoping that my temples will stop to burn so hard
Knowing that can't be, but wanting it for that
And in this rush of breathing, in madness bit of pain
What you meant for me, or do I really can't explain.
Looking back again and seeing all like a signee
You are my life, my sin, my threadbare and sublime.
Me love is not fulfilled, I live in past, it's wrong
Now when you aren't here I know it's very strong
Once before when I was nourished with you
I said and felt it something, I thought it was so true
A thousand years must waiting for real love in desert!
Then, 'coz I felt I said it, now 'coz I feel I know it!
And if there's one thing that 's undone... the last!!!
It's all my life without you, and living in the past...
Please, please forgive my foolishness if I upset you dear
It's hard to be present while always I'm not here.
I turn to sleep again, go back in my regress
Cause drug is now and ever the frozen loneliness...